No no no. Jana is not affected by anything. It doesn't even concern me. For the fucking fact that it reminds me of stuff, what am i supposed to do. I will be a numbskull idiot and shut the fuck up and don't do anything. But what can i do anyway. Nothing. Nothing right. So shut up Jana. Go back to your life. I've fucking had my life messed up and all i have to do now is to clear up the mess, and focus on what i'm supposed to focus. It's not right for me to think back and mess everything again and again and again. Right? Right. I'll shut up now.

I've never been this angry with myself before. But i think what i'm feeling now is seriously nonsense. Doesn't make sense to me at all. I dont want to end up hating myself. I don't know how many times i've said that. I came out of the circle. I've been staying out of the circle. And i'll continue to stay out. One more time i get affected, i don't know what i'm going to do to myself. One fucking incident and i'm like cursed for life. Wtf. No. This is not gonna happen again.

Sorry about that. I've lost my mood to blog. I wanted to blog about alot of other stuff but forget about it. I only wanna say one thing now.

Tharshini, i love you alot, please cheer up soon! Things WILL fall into place soon okay. It's shit time for both of us. You know what i mean. Things will be alright soon okay. Don't lose hope. I love you, smile dear!

No no no. Jana is not affected by anything. It doesn't even concern me. For the fucking fact that it reminds me of stuff, what am i supposed to do. I will be a numbskull idiot and shut the fuck up and don't do anything. But what can i do anyway. Nothing. Nothing right. So shut up Jana. Go back to your life. I've fucking had my life messed up and all i have to do now is to clear up the mess, and focus on what i'm supposed to focus. It's not right for me to think back and mess everything again and again and again. Right? Right. I'll shut up now.

I've never been this angry with myself before. But i think what i'm feeling now is seriously nonsense. Doesn't make sense to me at all. I dont want to end up hating myself. I don't know how many times i've said that. I came out of the circle. I've been staying out of the circle. And i'll continue to stay out. One more time i get affected, i don't know what i'm going to do to myself. One fucking incident and i'm like cursed for life. Wtf. No. This is not gonna happen again.

Sorry about that. I've lost my mood to blog. I wanted to blog about alot of other stuff but forget about it. I only wanna say one thing now.

Tharshini, i love you alot, please cheer up soon! Things WILL fall into place soon okay. It's shit time for both of us. You know what i mean. Things will be alright soon okay. Don't lose hope. I love you, smile dear!