Okay that picture has no significance to what i'm about to blog now. Just wanted a Lomo up. Hahah speaking of thaaaat.... My HOLGA is on it's way! I'm gonna buy it this week.

Okay i confess to you my blog. I'm confused. Not that anything happened. But thinking makes me confused. I don't know what i want for myself now. Only if i know i can go on it's way to face a success or failure in it right. I don't even know what i want! And i am starting to dislike to sit on the fence! Today morning i just blogged saying ambitiously that i'm gonna just stay like that and yak yak but i don't listen to myself often so yeah this is the result. CONFUSION and alot of restlessness!

Okay i just don't know if i'm doing the right thing. I don't really get an answer when i talk to others. That's my problem. People can be positive about it but i can't! I mean i can but not for long. It's something that people will say "Ya just do it" because of situations but i can't just do it! I mean on the long run effects are different. And it's sooo not a one person thing! I mean even if i decide to do it, its not assured that i'll see success. And no i'm not gonna think about failing cos i had enough.

But honestly, after today ends, for the rest of the week i'll be caught up with stuff so i won't really think about this. As usual, like normal school days, i'll throw this idea out of my mind. But it'll come back soon and i need to answer myself. I wanna decide on something and stay firm.

On the other hand, i already know what's supposed to be my decision. I mean, the right thing to do. It's obvious. Beyond obvious. Despite what people say, for the long run, (i know, this is not an economics essay) the decision i take is staring infront of my eyes. But my stupid mind refuses to abide. It's had to stay disciplined, i admit. Though there's a high possibility of me regretting this if i choose not to abide. Mind's a monkey. I don't know where to find an incentive to urge control.

In conclusion (really like an econs essay leh! the structure. argument - counter argument - evaluation. Hoho but i'm still gonna fail econs.) i think time answers everything. I should patiently wait for the sky to drop on my head. Yeap? Nope. For me to get an answer. Cos i would get it by say the end of next year.

BUT (i have a rebuttal to my evaluation. I suck.) I am a super impatient brat. What am i to do in the meantime! I have to whip up something right! Okay i will. Maybe something not related to my confusion. Maybe something else to preoccupy my time. Something as good, something distracting, but something more occupying. Yeah. Now all i have to do is to divert my deep thinking into finding this something to distract me. Mission 101 started. Let's see how it goes. I have a bad feeling i'm gonna blog about how i fell back into my initial confusion again, in my next post. Wait and see. -.- Tomorrow there's school again, grr. Bye bloggy!

Ooh ooh on a random note, i like Piya Piya song from Ninaithale Inikkum. Just watched that movie. PrithiV is hotness and cuteness :x

Raathiri nee kanmuzhicha natchathiram down down! Hahaha <3 I'm still as dreamy as today morning! I should stay that way. One day i'll end up fine. I'll have hope:)

(Portion was added later. I don't wanna create a new post.) Oh my gosh. For the amount i'm giving in i ought to be killed. But i really can't help it. Egoooo, where are you ): I got back what i gave but i'm being a sensitive mut as usual! Ahhh. Cmon cmon. I hate this. Only when something goes away from me i'll be attracted to go towards it! That sucks.

Okay that picture has no significance to what i'm about to blog now. Just wanted a Lomo up. Hahah speaking of thaaaat.... My HOLGA is on it's way! I'm gonna buy it this week.

Okay i confess to you my blog. I'm confused. Not that anything happened. But thinking makes me confused. I don't know what i want for myself now. Only if i know i can go on it's way to face a success or failure in it right. I don't even know what i want! And i am starting to dislike to sit on the fence! Today morning i just blogged saying ambitiously that i'm gonna just stay like that and yak yak but i don't listen to myself often so yeah this is the result. CONFUSION and alot of restlessness!

Okay i just don't know if i'm doing the right thing. I don't really get an answer when i talk to others. That's my problem. People can be positive about it but i can't! I mean i can but not for long. It's something that people will say "Ya just do it" because of situations but i can't just do it! I mean on the long run effects are different. And it's sooo not a one person thing! I mean even if i decide to do it, its not assured that i'll see success. And no i'm not gonna think about failing cos i had enough.

But honestly, after today ends, for the rest of the week i'll be caught up with stuff so i won't really think about this. As usual, like normal school days, i'll throw this idea out of my mind. But it'll come back soon and i need to answer myself. I wanna decide on something and stay firm.

On the other hand, i already know what's supposed to be my decision. I mean, the right thing to do. It's obvious. Beyond obvious. Despite what people say, for the long run, (i know, this is not an economics essay) the decision i take is staring infront of my eyes. But my stupid mind refuses to abide. It's had to stay disciplined, i admit. Though there's a high possibility of me regretting this if i choose not to abide. Mind's a monkey. I don't know where to find an incentive to urge control.

In conclusion (really like an econs essay leh! the structure. argument - counter argument - evaluation. Hoho but i'm still gonna fail econs.) i think time answers everything. I should patiently wait for the sky to drop on my head. Yeap? Nope. For me to get an answer. Cos i would get it by say the end of next year.

BUT (i have a rebuttal to my evaluation. I suck.) I am a super impatient brat. What am i to do in the meantime! I have to whip up something right! Okay i will. Maybe something not related to my confusion. Maybe something else to preoccupy my time. Something as good, something distracting, but something more occupying. Yeah. Now all i have to do is to divert my deep thinking into finding this something to distract me. Mission 101 started. Let's see how it goes. I have a bad feeling i'm gonna blog about how i fell back into my initial confusion again, in my next post. Wait and see. -.- Tomorrow there's school again, grr. Bye bloggy!

Ooh ooh on a random note, i like Piya Piya song from Ninaithale Inikkum. Just watched that movie. PrithiV is hotness and cuteness :x

Raathiri nee kanmuzhicha natchathiram down down! Hahaha <3 I'm still as dreamy as today morning! I should stay that way. One day i'll end up fine. I'll have hope:)

(Portion was added later. I don't wanna create a new post.) Oh my gosh. For the amount i'm giving in i ought to be killed. But i really can't help it. Egoooo, where are you ): I got back what i gave but i'm being a sensitive mut as usual! Ahhh. Cmon cmon. I hate this. Only when something goes away from me i'll be attracted to go towards it! That sucks.