Urggghhhhh i'm having a baaad flu. My nose is constantly drooling and i can't breathe properly at night -.- But i slept for 12 hours. Nono 13 hours straight. Damn shiok. So long since i did this.

And i dreamt of me having cancer. And that i would die in a day. But i didnt. And i was living every day thinking that i'll die any moment. Horrible life! With inbuilt fear of the pain of death! Lol! And i dreamt of other stuff too but i forgot. But i seriously think god's trying to tell me something. Perhaps to live my life to its fullest. Cos i'm spending my days in sloth. The only thing i do is PW. Okay i haven really started on that yet.

Actually no i didnt spend all my days to slack. Till Friday i was happily going out. Saturday, Deepavali, i was slacking. And today i'm going out with Tressa to do PW -.- But one day of sloth yesterday felt like a million years. Maybe thats why. Lazing around is damnnn boring sometimes BUT it's definitely much better than mugging!

Okay maybe the dream wants me to stop slacking before i get too much into it. OR maybe it doesnt even mean anything. LOL. But okay i shall try my best to not find a day to sit at home in front of my laptop for the whole day and eventually fall asleep on it. Sorry for turning down alot of plans guys. Especially Dhurga and Yams. Lol. Everyday after school this week i'll probably be free to go out so i'll meet up with those who called me out!

Gosh life's a big fat irony. Things we want to happen never happen until there's a point when we give up on them and move away. THEN they will start to happen. Then if you go back and accept it again, they will stop happening. Gosh! Thats why i don't dare to do anything now! I should just remain idle to maintain everything. Though this is not the arrangement i wanted. I'm scared if i move then everything will shift to become even more unfavourable. Boooomzzzzzz.

I really really really hate it when people are insincere. Because i am sincere in what i say! I don't go saying the same things to everyone. I only say it when i mean it. But you don't do that. It's sad that i just realised it. Now i regret even considering to do that. Lucky i didnt. Or else i'll kill myself now. I should be more careful. As easily as i build the trust in people, they break it. And when they realise it, it's too late. Yet again this is about something that none of you would think of, so don't jump to conclusions. As much as you don't need me now, i don't need you either.

I feel soooo cheated! Tsk.

Urggghhhhh i'm having a baaad flu. My nose is constantly drooling and i can't breathe properly at night -.- But i slept for 12 hours. Nono 13 hours straight. Damn shiok. So long since i did this.

And i dreamt of me having cancer. And that i would die in a day. But i didnt. And i was living every day thinking that i'll die any moment. Horrible life! With inbuilt fear of the pain of death! Lol! And i dreamt of other stuff too but i forgot. But i seriously think god's trying to tell me something. Perhaps to live my life to its fullest. Cos i'm spending my days in sloth. The only thing i do is PW. Okay i haven really started on that yet.

Actually no i didnt spend all my days to slack. Till Friday i was happily going out. Saturday, Deepavali, i was slacking. And today i'm going out with Tressa to do PW -.- But one day of sloth yesterday felt like a million years. Maybe thats why. Lazing around is damnnn boring sometimes BUT it's definitely much better than mugging!

Okay maybe the dream wants me to stop slacking before i get too much into it. OR maybe it doesnt even mean anything. LOL. But okay i shall try my best to not find a day to sit at home in front of my laptop for the whole day and eventually fall asleep on it. Sorry for turning down alot of plans guys. Especially Dhurga and Yams. Lol. Everyday after school this week i'll probably be free to go out so i'll meet up with those who called me out!

Gosh life's a big fat irony. Things we want to happen never happen until there's a point when we give up on them and move away. THEN they will start to happen. Then if you go back and accept it again, they will stop happening. Gosh! Thats why i don't dare to do anything now! I should just remain idle to maintain everything. Though this is not the arrangement i wanted. I'm scared if i move then everything will shift to become even more unfavourable. Boooomzzzzzz.

I really really really hate it when people are insincere. Because i am sincere in what i say! I don't go saying the same things to everyone. I only say it when i mean it. But you don't do that. It's sad that i just realised it. Now i regret even considering to do that. Lucky i didnt. Or else i'll kill myself now. I should be more careful. As easily as i build the trust in people, they break it. And when they realise it, it's too late. Yet again this is about something that none of you would think of, so don't jump to conclusions. As much as you don't need me now, i don't need you either.

I feel soooo cheated! Tsk.